Jesus Works: The Testimony of Jasmine M.

I am a seventeen-year-old girl who grew up a very shy person. I was always shy. I was considered, you may say, “a goody two shoes” in the eyes of the world. Never smoked, never drank, never snuck out of the house. Never did anything rebellious or what the world would consider rebellious.

In school, I was always the shy kid, the kid with good grades. The kid who wanted to impress other people. But, as the school year went on and as I got older, the world started to have an impression on me. I started cursing, and in sixth grade, in middle school, those were the years that I struggled with lust the most but didn’t necessarily know it. I would hide that part of me from the world, from my friends, because I was ashamed. I thought that I would be judged, that I wouldn’t be accepted anymore.

During that time in middle school, I went through a lot of changes. I went through a lot of dark spots in my life that caused me depression and anxiety which ultimately lead to me being angry at God. I always knew who God was, but I never had a relationship with Him. I never grew into the love for Him that I have now. I never could understand faith. I thought, to be a Christian was to be a perfect human being that never made mistakes, that never failed, that never sinned. But still, when people would ask me, “Are you a Christian?” I would say, “Yeah, I go to church, I believe in God, I’m a Christian.”

But that perspective changed. It was September 4th, 2020 when God came into my life. At that time, I was searching for answers about God. Searching for how to be saved. There were thoughts I’ve never had before about faith that I started to have unexpectedly.

That day was a normal day of school for me. And during that time, I felt an urge to pray which I had never truly prayed before. I would pray the usual good-night prayers and the prayers before you eat, but I never truly prayed. But that day, I sat down in my bed and I called out to God in tears. I begged Him to forgive me. I laid my anger, my pride aside, my depression, my anxiety, and called out to the one person that I thought could help me: which was Jesus. Because everything else crumbled, everything else didn’t work.

In those moments, I experienced the presence of God like I’d never experienced before. I felt the peace they say that surpasses all understanding. And in those moments, I knew that that was God. I had heard the voice of God. Which may sound crazy to some, but this was not a regular voice, but a still, small one. A voice of peace, but with power behind it. And it spoke to me, “You are going to be okay.”

From that point on, my life changed. I noticed the Holy Spirit’s fruit growing in my life. I saw my anger and depression go away. I saw the chains of sin, of lust, of selfishness fall off of me. In those moments, I embraced Jesus the most. And I found myself surrounded by this wonderful Christian community. I felt accepted. I was made new.

This faith journey for me and my testimony is not over yet. It gets difficult at times, but one thing I pray for everyone reading this: I pray that it will impact your life. That it will show you that even in your darkest moments, when it feels like your world is crumbling, when the trials and tribulations grow stronger than ever, that God never fails. That He will transform your life if you allow Him to. He is a good God. He will never leave you nor forsake you. And His love for you grows deeper every day.

Thank you for reading my testimony.

“Be strong and of a good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them: for the Lord your God, he goes with you; he will not fail you, nor forsake you.”

Deuteronomy 31:6

About Jasmine

Jasmine is a seventeen-year-old senior aspiring to be a Christian blogger. As a member of many Christian social media groups, Jasmine has been a major aid to those struggling in their faith. Her testimony has inspired women to trust in God and let Him transform their lives. You can find out more and chat with Jasmine yourself on her Facebook page.

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